I have a question for the readers of my little 'ole blog....
Exactly how is a "typical" black man supposed to act?
I ask this because I was told recently that I don't act like the "typical" black man. I was told this by a white girl I work with. I really didn't know how to respond to this, so I all said was O....Kay, and I ignored her the rest of the day.
Now... What the fuck is a "typical" black man?
Let me give you a little history about myself. I grew up in the PJ'S in a semi-major city on the East Coast. I am not giving any names here, because my Uncle told me I need to tone my blog down, because there is no telling who is reading my thoughts. (I am still trying to get that position in the corporate world that I have been working for since I got out of the Army.) I grew up in a single parent (mom) house with my little sister. I was an A, B student until I got to high school and girls (and me too)started thinking I was "cute". I started thinking I was grown and my grades went down the toilet. I was hanging out on the "block" with the "corner boys", trying to act like them. I got into a little trouble, nothing major, just typical black teen stuff. I joined the Army at 18, stayed 10 years, got out, went to college, got my degree and here I am writing this. My neighborhood was predominately Black, Puerto-Rican and Dominican, so the only white people I saw were the police or crack heads. In other words, I grew up with a "Nigga for life" attitude. The Army changed my whole perspective on the world and the people that I have to share it with.
I consider myself a educated man. I try to act like an educated man. Note I said MAN , instead of BLACK man, because I consider myself a MAN first. My skin color does not dictate who I am.
I still curse some.(alot).I am known to throw out a few "motherf--ckers" on occasion. I have been known to act a little niggerish in the clubs that I have frequented in my day. (I can still take it back there if I have to, so please don't take my new found maturity for weakness.) I have called women bitches and hoes. The word "nigga" was once a very important word in my vocabulary.
I am not trying to condone my past ignorance, but I was young and very ,very immature.
Thinking back on my past misdeeds, the only reason I did most of what I did was because I was young and immature. When I truly became a man, I stopped doing little boy shit.
That is what bothered me about the "typical" black man remark.
My coworker should have just called me a "boy". I really did not actually catch on to what she meant until I got home and replayed the whole scene in my head.
In my understanding, and someone please correct me if I am wrong, according to her, I am not the "typical" black man because I do not act like a angry militant black boy. According to her, I am not the "typical" black man because I do not act like the world and the white people in it owe me something. According to her, I am not the "typical" black man because I do not blame Mr. Charlie (probably her uncle) for all of Black AmeriKKKa's problems. I am not "typical" because I try to respect every person I come in contact with. I am not "typical" because I am a responsible adult. I am not "typical" because I have a college degree. I could go on and on why I think that this girl thinks I am not the "typical" black man.
Maybe I am digging too much into what I think she meant. She might not have meant anything. It probably could have been a very genuine compliment. But the shit... (excuse me.. am I acting "typical"?)Correction... her remark still bothered me.
Maybe I am getting way too sensitive in my old age.