Sunday, March 30, 2008

What box would I fit in?

This is a question I asked my man Truth over at He wrote a very good post about the way black men are portrayed here in this great country of ours.

So what kind of box would I fit in?

I am a Dark-skinned, mid 30's Brother that stands 6'2". I weigh about 224 lbs, and I am slightly muscular. I keep what my Caribbean couisins call "mi shine head", (bald for you folks that are not familiar with Caribbean speech) and my face is clean shaven.

When I am at work I wear either Polo shirts or nice button ups with nice slacks, but I prefer baggy jeans and vintage T-shirts. I prefer Tims over dress shoes, but I am starting to admit to myself that I am getting a little too old for that. But I must admit I do clean up pretty good, when I do choose to "get cute".

I have a college degree,which I am not utilizing at the moment, but SALLIE MAE still wants their money every damn month. Ain't that about nothing?

I own a 4 bedroom house in a Dallas Suburb. I drive a late model Truck that is killing me on gas every week (Blame it on living in Texas. I never liked Trucks until I moved out here. But they grew on me).

I listen to Hip-Hop although I don't condone most of the bullshit that is being force fed to our youth now-a-days. I curse a little.(a lot. blame my days in the Army. If you were not cursing, you were not talking. It is a habit I have been trying to break for years).

I am not loud, I don't like attention all that much, but I always seem to be the center of it. I prefer to stand in a corner and watch the people around me. You can a learn a lot by watching people.(The loudest person in a room is usually the first one to run if some shit pops off).

I don't run with an entourage. If you happen to see me in the streets of the Big D,I am usually solo. I believe that the more people that know what you do, the more people can talk about what you do. Besides,if I choose to do something that I know ain't right, I don't have to worry about snitches. I ain't gonna tell on myself.
No witnesses. (God knows what I did when I did it. He is the only one that matters).
Real G's move in silence.

I consider myself a natural born leader. I do not take orders all that well, that is the main reason I got out of the military. However,I have no problem listening to a person I respect. Besides, I believe that you have to learn how to follow before you can be expected to lead.

I speak what's on my mind, but I do know when to speak and when to keep my mouth shut.

So after reading my description of myself, what kind of box would I fit in?

Saturday, March 29, 2008

What did my Forefathers die for?

This has been a rough couple days for me. As you can tell in my last post someone very dear to me passed on. He is in a better place now so I guess I have to keep moving forward.

So here I go....

The other day a lot of Hill-Billy's billionaire friends wrote a letter to Nancy Pelosi telling her to reword what she said about the superdelegates voting with the will of the people. They told her that they would take their billions elsewhere if she did not do what they think she should do, which is back Hill-Billy.

Now ain't that about nothing?

If this is not enoungh of a reason for Black American's (no, All Americans)to say fuck the Dumb-o-crats I cannot think of a better one. My man the Field negro wrote a post about the O man starting a third-party, and I think that is a good idea.

Who the hell do these billionaires think they are?

What happened to one man (woman) one vote?

This whole race has started to turn me against politics. Hill-Billy thought she would just march right into the white house. She had plans to put back all the shit they took when they looted the place back in 2001. She just knew that the American people would still be blinded by her Husbands bullshit and that she would win the election in a first round knockout.

And here comes the big black buck (insert the "O" man here).He ruined it for everybody. He threw a monkey wrench into her perfect plans. He started raising more money than her, he kicked her fat ass in all the states she was supposed to win, he made her look crazy and pyscotic in all those debates and he started stealing her support in the black comunity, (first black president my black ass). He made her lose her damn mind.

So now that she has no chance in hell of winning, she is telling Nancy Pelosi that the will of the American People does not matter to her. The same way the smaller states that she lost to the "O" man did not matter to her. This crazy $#%^#* will do anything she has to do, to do what she thinks she has to do. Consequences be damned.

So I am saying this, if she happens to get the nomination...

I think that we should write in the Field Negro on every ballot.

Fuck the Dumb-o-Crats.

Fuck the Rethuglicans.

If Obama can garner so much support in this country, what do you think a real Field Negro will do?

Anyway that is my rant.

I'm out.

Thursday, March 27, 2008


Life is a trip.

Life will throw some shit at you that will make you want to give it all up.

This past weekend my wife and I went down to San Antonio for a funeral. The funeral was for the father of my wife's best friend. Her best friend's family kinda sorta adopted us into their family while we lived in San Antonio. We went on family vacations with them, we went to family barbeques, we did all the "family" stuff with them. So this death hit us pretty hard.

Her father was a good man. He died with all of his family around him, which is the way I want to go out. I remember going over to his house after a hard day of working in that hot-ass warehouse to find him sitting on his porch with a beer in one hand and a blunt in the other. (Yes I said blunt, that is just what he did.)He would always greet me in the same way, "What's happening Red Dawg. How was H-E-B today?"
(H-E-B was the grocery store warehouse I worked in. He used to drive trucks for them.)I would proceed to tell him about my day, and he would give me advice on life.
He would tell me to keep my head up and keep doing what I was doing. (I was in college at the time also.)

His wife would come outside after a while and sit with us. She would tell me to go inside and get something to eat, and he would tell her that I was a grown-ass man, and if I wanted to eat, I knew where the kitchen was. He always told it like it was. No sugar coating, no bullshit. If you listened that was good, if you chose not to that was good too. His favorite saying was, "The more I teach you, the dumber I get!"

Mr. Jimmy, (Pops) was only 65 years old.

He died of cancer.
He would have been married to the same woman for 43 years this December.
He left 3 daughters, 2 sons, 10 grandchildren, and 2 great-grandchildren.
He had many nieces and nephews as well as hundreds of friends.

He was a good man. He was a mentor to me, a father to many, a grandfather to even more, and a loving dedicated husband to one beautiful woman.

He will be sorely missed.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

A Just and Noble Cause

Your President of these here Divided States of AmeriKKKa said some shit today that really pissed me off.

As you may well know today is the 5th or 6th year of his invasion of Iraq. I say 5th or 6th because it may as well be 25 0r 30 because that is how long I believe that the country I served for 10 years will be stuck in that quagmire. Anyway he said that "we" are winning over there and that the sacrifices that "our" men and brave women have had to deal with were 'just and noble'.

'Just and Noble' huh?

Well let's define "just" and "noble" and see what we come up with.

1. JUST- acting or being in conformity with what is morally upright or good : righteous (2): being what is merited : deserved b: legally correct

2.NOBLE- a. Having or showing qualities of high moral character, such as courage, generosity, or honor

Now let me break this down.

According to the above definition that I jacked from Webster, is Jr.'s war "Just"?

What was morally right about invading a sovereign land and overthrowing it's government?

What is righteous about trying to force our way of life on a country that can never understand our way of life?

3,992 deaths and 26000 injured US Hero's is merited and deserved?

Was anything legally correct about Abu Grave? Or the secret interrogation camps strung around the globe?

Now the definition of Noble does apply to an extent to Jr.'s war.

Noble describes every one of my Brothers (and Sister's) in Arms that are over there and that are going to Jr.'s little tea party.

Noble describes the families of everyone of my Brother's (and Sisters) in Arms that are separated from their loved ones because of Jr.'s little tea party.

But does Noble describe our "Decider in Chief"?

Hell to the Naw!!

What is noble about imposing your will on people that could care less about your will?

What is Noble about telling the Iraqi people that they have to step up and fix the mess that you started?

What is Noble about getting your own Kids and relatives exempt from serving in the fiasco that you dreamed up, while you are constantly showing my kids and relatives commercials about how good it is too serve?

What is Noble about spending $8,000,000,000 (that is billion with a B) month of MY tax money to fund your little excursion, while I have to struggle to come up with $85 every 3 days for the gas that I need to make it to work, so I can give you more of my money to fund your bullshit?

Am I working for you or my family?

What is Noble about your boy's "ex" company (Haliburton), that you so conveniently gave no bid contracts to, getting caught creating dummy corporations to keep from paying their share of taxes that would help fund your little tea party?

I hope that I am not the only one here that realizes that this is some major bullshit.

'Just and Noble'?

Motherfucker please.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Seeing through Black Eyes

I have a little problem.

My problem is that I am a little biased towards my people. If I am in a group of strange people, I always gravitate towards the person in the room that looks like me. (I.E. Black). I would rather be around black people even though I have white friends.

But are they really my friends?

I have one white guy I really consider my friend. He is my family. This guy is my brother. We were in the Army together for the last 5 years of my military career. He lives in Northern Cali now, but we talk at least once a week.

One white guy that I consider a friend out of the hundreds of white guys I have known throughout my life.

The white guys that I hang with every now and again are cool, but would I consider them "friends"? I have never been to their houses, they have never been to mine. The few times we do see each other after work, we meet somewhere neutral. I have never met their families and they have never met mine. Some of these guys are really cool, and I would love to meet their significant others, but we just haven't gotten around to it.

Sometimes I feel that I don't have anything in common with white people. I know that the majority of white people in this country have the same feelings about life that I do. I know that they have the same fears about life that I do. I know that they love life the way I do, so I just don't understand why I feel this way.

I cannot understand why white people cannot see the America that I see. They cannot understand why I cannot see their America. I mean it does not take X-ray vision to see how hateful America is towards people of color. It does not take X-ray vision to see that the Just-us System was not designed for people of color. It does not take X-ray vision to see that the health care, housing and job markets were not designed for people of color. I heard a question this morning that Pastor Freddie Haynes the senior Pastor at Friendship West Baptist Church said he heard being asked by a commentator on Fix Noise, "Why is there even a Black Church?" Well there would be no need for a "black" church if the American Government lived up to the pretense that is written in their Declaration of Independence that all men are created equal. The black church was invented because white churches would not accept black members.

There was no problem with race until America made it one. Black people have never randomly killed white people just because of their white skin. Black people have never lynched a white man for looking at a black woman. Black people have never stopped a white person from moving into a black neighborhood. Black people have never stopped a white person from getting a job. Nobody white in America was stripped of their identity, their family, their culture, their religion, or their language. White people have never been told that they were so worthless that they are not even counted as a full human being. Nobody white has ever been subjected to what the average black person in America has been subjected to.

We have made great gains in this country considering the way it used to be for us here. We can live where we want, eat where we want, go to any school we want, even marry who we want.

All this has been accomplished by brave white people that decided to fight the status quo and go against their peers, and also by even braver Black people that were tired of being sick and tired.

I hope that I will live long enough to see the day that I feel at home where ever I choose to go in this country. I hope I will live long enough to see the day that I can truly say that I have real friends of different races, not just real friends of my race.

I hope that I will live to see the day where I don't see the world through Black eyes.

The Audacity of Hope.

Can my hopes be attained?

Friday, March 14, 2008

'Unashamedly Black'

I wish this whole Dumocratic Presidential race would hurry up and come to an end.

I am so sick of Hill-Billy and her people, I don't know what to do.

They begin this whole mess by race baiting Big O in SC.

Then came all the negative ads, followed by the talk about Big O's experience, as if years of being a First Lady actually qualifies as "experience".

Her supporters started saying and doing the things that would give her Plausible Deniability.

They did all the "wet work". She just sat back and played innocent. It is just like a crime boss ordering a hit to be carried out the same day he will be out of town.

They have put Big O on the defensive and it might have cost him the job he is fighting to get.

They are now attacking Big O's minister for telling Black People to stand up and be accountable for their actions. They are attacking his Pastor for telling Black People to stop being victim's and to start being victors. They are attacking his Pastor for telling the truth about America's shameful past (and present).

His Pastor is a hate monger now.

His Pastor is a racist.

They had that Ferror woman get quoted in all the right papers saying that the only reason Obama is where he is in this race is because of his skin color. Then they switched the whole scenario around to make it seem like Hillary was the victim.

Once again they have reminded AmerriKKKa that Obama is a black man trying to get the keys to their beloved mansion. That was the purpose of that 3 am ad. And once again she has fixed it where she is "out of town" when the proverbial trigger is pulled. This time she was sitting in front of a bunch of Black people apologizing to any Black Folk that were offended by the shit that she ordered her people to do.

All the while the media are acting the part of her goons. They have been pulling drive-by's on Big O for the past 3 days.

So what will Obama do? Will he continue to play defense or will he hit back?

He already has thrown his "racist" Pastor under the bus. He loudly denounced anything his Pastor might have said to offend the precious majority in this country.

What is racist about telling people in your community to stand up and become accountable for your actions?

What is racist about telling the people in your community the truth about how things are here in the land of the free?

What is racist about teaching the people in your community to be self sufficient, and responsible?

Is this anything different than what Jerry Fallwell, or any other of those old mega church (white) kooks have been doing for years?

If I were one of Big O's advisers, I would tell Big O to tell the media to lay off my Pastor. I would tell them that people are not voting for my church, they are voting for ME. I would tell them that this is the land of free speech and everybody has a right to say exactly what the hell they want to say.

I would remind the media about Hill-Billy's illegal activities, -White- Water-, when she was "helping" to run the state of Arkansas. (That is part of the 35 years of experience that she throws up to anyone that will listen).

I would ask the media how can anyone be ready to run this country on "day 1", when she could not successfully run her own marriage?

Remember the blue dress?

I would remind the media about the disastrous program called NAFTA. The same program she supported when Sweet Dick sweet talked congress into passing .

I would remind the media about how she voted for the war, before she voted against it.

I would remind the media how one day she is so proud to be running with me, and the next day she is yelling about how shameful I have run my campaign.

Doesn't that sound Bi-Polar?

I would remind the media about all the losses she has suffered against someone with no experience. But I am experienced enough to be her replacement if she wins and gets killed on the job. (Which means she thinks that I do have experience).

I would remind them that she never once thanked the voters that did support her in all those States she lost, But I would also remind the media that I gracefully accepted defeat and thanked the people for all the support that I received in the few states that I did lose.

So in other words I would fight back.

I would come out of my corner with both guns blazing.

Take no prisoners.

But I would continue to talk about my platform. I would not deviate from the issues.

If Big O is going to win this thing he has to turn all the negative attention onto Hill-Billy.

If Big O really wants to win that is.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Will you Hire me?

I have been trying to post my thoughts on my blog for about 3 days now, and this site has not allowed me to . I might have to jump ship and find another home... But anyway here are my thoughts....

Of all the above pictures that you see here, which young man, (or in Master P's case old man trying to be young), would you hire if you were a HR rep for your company, and anyone of these gentlemen were to come into your office for potential employment?
I ask this because I see all the above pictures everyday stroll through my office. I am not in HR, but a person does have to come through my office in order to get approved for employment with my organization. My office runs criminal history checks and we fingerprint potential employees. Basically we are the deciding factor on who gets hired or who gets denied.
Everyday I see well dressed individuals and everyday I see young men (and sometimes women), that look like they just stepped out of one of Master P's videos. Please understand that if all the checks and fingerprints that we run come back clean, then that person is hired. So it basically does not matter what a person looks like that comes into my office.
First appearances are everything. And my office is one of the steps that a person has to take to get a job with my organization. So in saying that, I believe that a person should come into my office looking like they are serious about being hired, because ultimately we are part of the interviewing process.
So my question is this.....
What are schools and parents teaching our youth about what needs to happen in order to get hired by any company? Or should the question be, are they teaching our youth anything?
I had to tell a young man (black man) the other day to pull his damn pants up. I had to tell a young man the other day (white man) to leave because he smelled like he had just smoked a good blunt out in the parking lot. I have seen my female coworkers tell female applicants to leave because of their foul mouths, or to get off their damn cell phones.
This really bothers me. I know when I was younger I did some of the same stuff I see these young cats of today doing. But I did respect myself and my elders. I did have enough common sense (or what I call come-on sense), that I knew that in order to get a job anywhere, from McDonald's, to a furniture warehouse, I had to dress the part. I think the best way I can put it is this, Dress for the job you want, not the job you have.
So what the fuck is wrong with today's parents? What are our schools that WE are funding with our Tax Dollars teaching?
How are these kids supposed to achieve anything without some kind of guidance?
Or am I just getting old?