Monday, January 21, 2013

So you think I'm funny? What about me is funny?

The wifey and I spent a very good weekend in Atlanta celebrating our cousins 40th birthday.
We really did it big for her. She is a very strong woman and she deserved everything we did and a whole lot more. I cannot put in words the inspiration that she gives me in how she lives her life. She is a very special woman.

Anyways....

Her and my sister told me over the weekend that I always have a mean scowl on my face. They asked me why. I have been told this before, but I always just blow it off. This time I gave them an answer.

I told them that this is my "this ain't what you want" face. I told them that I don't even realize that I do it; it is just a natural expression for me.

Thinking back on it, I started my" mean mug" face back when I was younger. The neighborhood I grew up in was a tough place. My "back the fuck up"  face was my way of telling the neighborhood thugs that was not in my crew, that I wasn't the one to step to with no bullshit. It was my protection. I did not get picked on. I did not get bullied. I did have to fight a lot, but that was mainly fighting to protect someone in my family or crew. I did get disrespected some...and I did have to live up to my "this ain't what you want" face; but all in all my scowl  "protected" me somewhat. It made people take me serious.

I still feel the need for people to take me serious.

See... I live in America. In the south at that. Texas to be exact. And this country and this state as well as the surrounding states seem to think that all Black men are jokes. A Black man in this country is at the very bottom of the totem pole.

The rank and file in this country goes like this....
1. White Women
2. White children
3. White men
4. pets
5. Asian people
6. Hispanic people
7. Black women
8. pets
9.Black children
10. pets
11. Black men

We are nothing but the evenings entertainment. They expect us to sing, dance, dribble a basketball, run a football, fight in a ring gladiator style, tell jokes, act..make the evening news by doing something niggardly, etc..etc..

All occupations where people pay to see us give them entertainment.

We are not supposed to be  CEOS, doctors, lawyers, fathers, husbands, sons, uncles or anything that requires us to be out front leading other men.

We as a people even think like this..it is evident in the people our  first "Black" president picked to lead the nations most prestigious departments.

So my "scowl" is my way of telling people that I ain't no damn court jester. My "scowl" is my way of telling people that I am not here to entertain them. My "scowl" is my way of telling people to come correct when they approach me or keep it moving. My "scowl" is my way of telling people that I don't need another man to guide my every step and dictate what I do. I make my own decisions. And my "scowl" is my way of telling weak insecure people to stay the fuck from around me.

So if I see any of you faithful readers out in the streets anywhere...please do not be afraid to approach me.. I am a 6'2, 220 lb, chocolate teddy bear.

Just don't do anything to make me show my teeth.

7 comments:

Reggie said...

I like to think of myself as a 6'1, 185 pound caramel Teddy Bear....with a mean mug most of the time.

thementalplantation said...

I have to refute the black man being at the very bottom of the totem pole because it is not so. At the very bottom are black women and black children. The black man is a step above.
I have no idea with all of the things going on from slavery until now how black women got above it is not happening. And black children have it just as hard. No you could put black people at the bottom but sorry not black men.

Phoenix said...

@thementalplantation I don't want to get into an argument about competitive grievances but check out the story of Free Frank and Annie Turnbo and lemme know what your take is.

Dirty Red said...

Reggie,

I hear ya bro.

Mentalplantation,
We have to agree to disagree. Black women get more respect in this country than Black men. At least from what I see everyday that is.

Phoenix,

We need more examples of this type.
Stories like this have to be dug out the vaults and shared. Americans think that Martin Luther the King was the only Black person in this country that was ever worth anything.

Phoenix said...

@Reggie,
That's what I'm trying to do. Truth is this grew out of an embarrassing convo I had where I had a problem naming black entrepreneurs who achieved scale. I barely scratched and there are so many stories (please subscribe to get updates during BHM and share the word. Planning on emailing every 4th day or so.

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