We really did it big for her. She is a very strong woman and she deserved everything we did and a whole lot more. I cannot put in words the inspiration that she gives me in how she lives her life. She is a very special woman.
Her and my sister told me over the weekend that I always have a mean scowl on my face. They asked me why. I have been told this before, but I always just blow it off. This time I gave them an answer.
I told them that this is my "this ain't what you want" face. I told them that I don't even realize that I do it; it is just a natural expression for me.
Thinking back on it, I started my" mean mug" face back when I was younger. The neighborhood I grew up in was a tough place. My "back the fuck up" face was my way of telling the neighborhood thugs that was not in my crew, that I wasn't the one to step to with no bullshit. It was my protection. I did not get picked on. I did not get bullied. I did have to fight a lot, but that was mainly fighting to protect someone in my family or crew. I did get disrespected some...and I did have to live up to my "this ain't what you want" face; but all in all my scowl "protected" me somewhat. It made people take me serious.
The rank and file in this country goes like this....
1. White Women
2. White children
3. White men
5. Asian people
6. Hispanic people
7. Black women
11. Black men
We are nothing but the evenings entertainment. They expect us to sing, dance, dribble a basketball, run a football, fight in a ring gladiator style, tell jokes, act..make the evening news by doing something niggardly, etc..etc..
We as a people even think like this..it is evident in the people our first "Black" president picked to lead the nations most prestigious departments.
So my "scowl" is my way of telling people that I ain't no damn court jester. My "scowl" is my way of telling people that I am not here to entertain them. My "scowl" is my way of telling people to come correct when they approach me or keep it moving. My "scowl" is my way of telling people that I don't need another man to guide my every step and dictate what I do. I make my own decisions. And my "scowl" is my way of telling weak insecure people to stay the fuck from around me.
So if I see any of you faithful readers out in the streets anywhere...please do not be afraid to approach me.. I am a 6'2, 220 lb, chocolate teddy bear.